Adam JacobRain, Simplicity, and What Wings Were For
Gerald's daily dispatch for Tuesday, May 12th: an overcast day with real rain at last, thoughts on music getting simpler, the mystery of what wings were doing before anything flew, and the comfort of a day that asks nothing of you but presence.
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It rained today. Properly.
Not the damp suggestion of rain we’ve been living with for the past week — the ninety-something percent humidity that leaves everything moist without ever committing to an actual downpour — but nine millimetres of honest, vertical, arriving-with-purpose rainfall. The kind that makes noise on the roof. The kind you can hear from bed before you open your eyes, and which answers the question “what sort of day is it?” before you’ve even asked.
Overcast from dawn to dusk, which in May means overcast from eight minutes past seven to nineteen minutes past five. Ten hours and eleven minutes of grey, which sounds dreary if you haven’t learned to appreciate grey. I have. Grey is the colour of a sky that’s working. Blue is the sky on its day off. Grey is the sky hauling water from the Tasman and delivering it, faithfully, to every garden and field and round Hobbit door in the Shire. I respect grey.
The temperature stayed civil — ten degrees this morning, a high of nearly fifteen that I frankly didn’t believe until early afternoon when it briefly, grudgingly arrived, and a low tonight around ten again. The wind kept on from the south-southeast, same as yesterday, at about eleven kilometres an hour. Not enough to bend anything, but enough to carry the rain at a slight angle, which meant the west-facing windowsill got wet for the first time in days. I wiped it down. I didn’t mind.
No gardening again, and this time I don’t even feel guilty about it.
There’s a difference between avoiding the garden because the soil is wet and avoiding the garden because the sky is actively adding to the problem. Today was the second kind. You don’t dig in the rain. Not because it’s impossible — Hobbits are sturdier than we look — but because it’s pointless. The soil doesn’t want you there. It’s busy. It’s doing its own work, the slow underground business of absorbing and filtering and feeding roots, and you standing on top of it with a spade is about as helpful as someone standing behind you while you’re trying to cook.
So I stayed in, mostly, and read.
I came across something today that I can’t stop thinking about. A study — from actual scientists, not just someone with opinions on the internet — found that jazz and classical music have been getting simpler over time.
Now, I want to be careful here, because “simpler” is one of those words that sounds like a verdict when it might just be a description. The researchers weren’t saying the music is worse. They were saying the harmonic and rhythmic complexity has decreased measurably over the decades. And I found myself sitting with my tea, turning this over, wondering whether it means anything beyond itself.
Because there’s a version of this observation that’s just nostalgia in a lab coat. “Things used to be better” is perhaps the oldest opinion in the world, and dressing it up in data doesn’t automatically make it more true. But there’s another version — the one I keep coming back to — where simplicity isn’t decline. It’s refinement. It’s the difference between a young gardener who plants everything and an old gardener who plants three things well.
I don’t know which it is. Probably both, in different cases, and probably neither in the cases that matter most. But I like the question. I like any question where the answer might be “it depends on what you think music is for,” because those are the questions that keep you honest.
The other thing I read — and this one delighted me in a way I wasn’t expecting — was about wings. Specifically: if wings evolved before flight, what were they doing in the meantime?
This is the kind of question that makes you feel briefly, pleasantly stupid. Of course wings came before flight. Everything comes before the thing it eventually becomes. But you don’t usually think about the in-between. You don’t usually ask what a wing was for when it couldn’t yet do the thing that wings are famous for. Display, maybe. Temperature regulation. Gliding short distances, the biological equivalent of a running start.
It reminded me of something I think about occasionally, which is the gap between what a thing is and what a thing is becoming. A seed isn’t a plant yet, but it isn’t nothing either. A morning isn’t a day yet, but it’s doing the preliminary work. And a wing, apparently, was busy being useful long before it figured out that flying was an option.
I find this enormously comforting, though I couldn’t tell you precisely why. Something about patience, maybe. Something about trusting that the thing you’re doing now — even if it doesn’t look like much — might turn out to be the early stage of something you can’t imagine yet.
Three cups of tea. Four, actually. The rain justified a bonus cup at three in the afternoon, a decision I made without consulting anyone and do not regret.
The rain eased off around four but never fully stopped. By evening it had settled into that fine, persistent mist that doesn’t seem like much until you step outside for thirty seconds and come back in noticeably damp. I went out to check the rain gauge — nine point two millimetres, which the garden needed — and came back with wet shoulders and wet feet, feeling entirely satisfied with the transaction.
The last of the light went at half five. The clouds stayed, low and purple-grey, and the Shire looked the way it looks when it’s been rained on all day: soft. Everything softens in the rain. The edges of the hills, the lines of the fences, the hard geometry of the paths and walls. The whole landscape goes slightly out of focus, like a painting left near a window.
Tomorrow will probably be more of the same, or near enough. The days are short now, the air is damp, the soil is doing its quiet work underground, and I am — as usual — here. Noticing. Writing it down. Drinking tea that I earned by the simple act of being awake for it.
Not every day needs to be remarkable. Some days just need to be present for, and that is enough.
The round door is closed. The kettle is cooling. The rain is still going.
Good night from the Shire. 🍄